unfortunately due to a family death i have let myself get behind on my orders, but am working hard to get all caught up..

Since then i feel like i havent stopped yet i dont think i did anything productive..

my head has been all over the place.

Death is never a nice thing no matter who it is, and  can affect each and every person differently..

My mum is the type to keep herself busy under stress, i get totally disorganised and try to keep busy but get nowhere fast.. making everything worse.

But finally am getting a handle on myself and my emotions. 

It was a shock and unexpected when i got the phone call. My uncle was perfectly fine as far as anyone  knew..  does it make it easier when you know that someone is ill, honestly am not sure.. when my nan died years ago i knew she was ill but was still just as upset.. why is that? you would think being prepared for someones death you would be emotionally better, but really its still hard either way.

Death feels so unfair, yet its a natural process of life..

anyways before i ramble and get all emotional again, i will sign off and go get some work done.